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March 29, 2008
Self-confidence and self-worth
I just realized that self-confidence and self-worth are not the same thing. I know that a lot of the time these terms are used interchangeably. However, they denote two different aspects of personality.
Take a look in the dictionary:
self-confidence
noun
A feeling of trust in one’s abilities...
self-worth (or self-esteem)
noun
Confidence in one’s own worth...
Usually people with personalities with high self-confidence have high self-worth. Likewise, personalities with low self-confidence have usually have low self-worth.
In some cases, it is possible to have a lot of confidence in one’s abilities without having the feeling that one is worth using those abilities for oneself. This condition manifests itself with the appearance of having low motivation to do anything for oneself. At the sa
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March 26, 2008
Giving up the Sauce
Early in the morning, last week I found myself in a terrible depression. Their is nothing worse then feeling so incredibly down for no apparent reason. '
But after a little while I realized that there was a reason. It took a little while to figure out because it had nothing to do with things in my life that make me sad.
The depression was a temporary one brought in by the consumption of alcohol. It may only last a few hours till it is all metabolized out of my system, but it feels really bad all the same. Bad enough to not be worth drinking for social reason alone.
So I am going dry for a while to see what it feels like to not be drinking. I have already gone out to bars and clubs and not partaken in the traditional beverage consumption.
It is different. Suddenly everyone wants mr to drink with them. They want to test my convictions and get me to go back on my word. I guess I have not given up alcohol forever. I have just no longer drink solely because everyone else expects me to,
In some ways It makes me feel rebellious. Rebellious is fun.
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March 24, 2008
Life through a pendulum's window.
This weekend I saw a old wall clock. It had all the normal features of a wall clock: face, hands, numbers. It also had a peculiar little feature that you don't see on many moddern time pieces; a pendulum.
The pendulum was polished brass set deep within the clock face. The only way it could be seen was through a tiny window that was no wider then the pendulum itself. The resulting effect was the pendulum weight shooting back and forth each second giving just a momentary glimpse of its shiny splendor.
There are people like this. People who spend most of their life hidden away in the dark of the clock face. Waiting. Gathering momentum for the brief time that they pass under the glass. It is then the whole world can see their elegance. The way the light reflects so beautify off there lustiered surface and move so smooth and keen. Then just as quickly as it were there, it are go again. Back into the clock to slow, stop, and start the process again.
Those standing outside looking in can only guess at the true nature of the pendulum. We have seen them before and can make guesses about it. How long the pendulum rod is, how wide the arc must be within the clock. However, these are just guesses. Everything outside the pendulum's window is a mystery.
Some time I wonder if the pendulum resents the world. It complains that on one really knows what kind of pendulum it is. They guess and make judgments on it without knowing much about it. But what else can they do?
No one will ever really know this pendulum until the face that it hids behind is removed. It will be exposed all the time. Even when it reaches the end of its are and stops for a instant. The pendulum's rod will be seen for its length and that sensitive, stationary point where it connects the the clock.
Could a pendulum that spent so much time alone in the dark aver do this? Expose its self for all its strengths and weaknesses just so its true nature can be known by someone else?
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March 23, 2008
You look like you are from Dawson's Creek
Last night I was at a birthday party and as girl cam up to me and said "You look like you are from Dawson's Creek." I'm guessing that it was a complement, but I did not take it that way. I did not like Dawson's Creek and would rather not be associated with it.
Not sure why this comment set me off. It just did.
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March 22, 2008
I don't know if I liked this week.
I don't know if I liked this week. I spent a lot of it being very busy with non-work related stuff. But now the end of the week is here and I don't feel like I accomplished much.
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March 20, 2008
Not participating in Easter (even a little).
I have never been into the whole religious aspect of Easter. But have always partaken in the western tradition of celebrating with candy and chocolates.
Late last year I discovered that my skin is sensitive to chocolate and consuming it will cause never ending acne. So I voted in favor of my complexion and stopped eating it. Easter this year has been almost nonexistent for me. No chocolate bunnies, no Cadbury cream eggs, nothing like that at all. I did have a few Peeps. These are really not very good.
Easter is a non holiday for me now.
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March 18, 2008
Got my car Back!
Got my car back today. Apparently the center section of the exhaust system had to be replaced. So it ended up being a bit pricey.
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March 17, 2008
Saint Patrick's Day!
There is no better way to celebrate Saint Patrick's Day then getting absolutely shmammered. I did just that. I don't know if there are a lot of Irish descendants in Dover, but the whole town seems to get into a punch drunk Saint Patrick's Day frenzy on Marsh 17th.
The whole thing is loud and boisterous and fun.
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March 11, 2008
Blah! Broken Car
So some reason, my car has decided to develop a break in the exhaust system. So now it is very loud and not the usual pleasure to drive. I will be taking it down to the the shop later and have it be fixed over the weekend.
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March 9, 2008
Super Smash Bros. Brawl
Super Smash Bros. Brawl has been the most anticipated game on the Nintendo Wii. It was released last night at a midnight launch.
Since then the only thing that has been happening at LaTour is endless rounds of Super Smash Bros. Brawl. We have been having a absolute bast with game.
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March 7, 2008
Chilling with Abi and Mom
I was so happy to see Abi and my mom today. They where driving back from Connecticut and stopped in Portsmouth on for a meal. I am always happy to see them as well as Trance and Nikkei.
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March 6, 2008
Multiple Sclerosis benefit fundraiser
There was a big multiple sclerosis benefit fundraiser at Mojitos tonight. There where three great local cover bands keeping everyone entertained. Tons of people and tons of fun.
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March 5, 2008
House/Techno night a Mojitos.
There is a push to get a House/Techno music night at Mojitos. The first one was tonight. The music is good. Too bad the show was not well attended. I realy hope people start coming to these.
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March 4, 2008
Day 3 getting better
So I am feeling a lot better today, but I would not be taking any road trips. Which is exactly what I would be doing if I was well. I was supposed to be taking my sister to see my brother in Connecticut. However, this flu has put a stop to that. :(
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March 3, 2008
Day 2....
Yeah.. it kinda like that....
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March 2, 2008
I is sick and now my power adapter is too.. :(
The only thing worse then being stuck in bed all day, is being stuck in bed with a laptop with a broken power adapter. The wire case at the laptop end broke exposing the metal yummy insides. This is probably a fire hazard...
So i just wrapped it in electrical tape and is seems to still work. I then placed a order for a replacement one from Macally.
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March 1, 2008
Feeling sick
I am not feeling so well. I think I will be spending all of Sunday in bed. I need to get better for next week.
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